I ruined it I ruined my first relationship in 7 MONTHS and you know what I actually liked him like like liked him and now I blew it fuck. Why can’t I just be in love, why can’t I be loved
Am I broken? I feel so broken?
I feel as though my whole being is falling apart. I mean I was doing so good I hadn’t fainted for 22 DAYS!! And now all of the sudden I’ve fainted 4 times in the last two days! Why why why why freaking now?!? Why when I have so much freaking school work to do I feel like I’m drowning?!? And now my pain is back and it’s worse it’s like an 8 and all my doctors think I’m exaggerating because I’m not hysterically sobbing in pain and they think I just want drugs, but I don’t honestly I hate being on so many meds I hate having to pop ibuprofen, arnica, tums, and pepto like its candy along with my tenthousand other meds. I hate not being able to think clearly. I hate that it’s taken me 30minutues to write this freaking post, I hate that I complain do much, but I have to get it out somewhere or I’m afraid I’ll explode. Please someone save me from breaking into a thousand pieces.
Okay so now my kidneys are killing me what’s up with this!?! I am just a hot-mess minus the hot part lol I’m more like a freezing-to-death-mess
And I’m just complaining now so I probably should stop before you guys think I’m just a whiny loser…..
I’m tired of struggling to just breathe
Why must everyday be like this when its so hard to just breathe, to sit up, to just live and not fall into that bad of depression I was in last year
My tummy hate me now and idk why
Ughhhhhhhh I hate my tummy so much my mom thinks its ( the cramping, diarrhea, nausea, heartburn, bloating, etc.) is either caused by all the meds I’m on or by gluten. But I’ve never had a problem with gluten before so why would I have one now???? Also has anyone else gotten like A TON of cold sores lately?